I've Got A Theory

It Could Be Bunnies

I'm not who I used to be
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naytally
As we get older, we continually shape and mold who we are based on those we surround ourselves with and the experiences we have. We're never the same person we were a week, month, year or decade ago, and that is okay.

Today I'm a 27 year old college student who has been dating a guy for 4.25 years, started therapy for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and is about to start a business.

Two and a half years ago I wanted nothing more than to have a kid and get married. This desire is still there but it's more of an "I'll get to it eventually" than a "OMG I MUST HAVE IT". I still get jealous when my friends have babies or get engaged, but at least now I get happy for them instead of removing them from my life. Also generally a shiftless layabout just kind of "waiting for my life to start"

Five years ago I was in a loveless relationship that had turned mentally, verbally and physically abusive.

Ten years ago, when I turned 17 I was depressed, I habitually cut myself, I had a small circle of friends, my extended family was together a lot but I hated the world.

Fifteen years ago I was waiting for Y2K to kill us all while holding hands with my first boyfriend. If you could call him that.

Twenty years ago I wondered why no one liked me and decided if they couldn't like me for who I am, they weren't worth my time. I wish I'd have listened to my own advice.

The rest of my life before then is a bit fuzzy, but you get the point.

I've always been Natalie Jackson. Who Natalie Jackson is has continuously changed.

This was going to be some long drawn out post about how I've become a better person and all that, but, meh. I've gotta go buy groceries.

HOLY SHIT! NATHAN FILLION IS GOING TO BE AT WIZARD WORLD PHILLY...
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I just bought the VIP Nathan Fillion ticket. I don't even care that it means I can't get all the autographs I wanted to get at Megacon, ITS NATHAN FUCKING FILLION. AND I GET TO HAVE MY PICTURE TAKEN WITH HIM. AND GET HIS AUTOGRAPH. YOU GUYS. THIS FEEL. CAPSLOCK DOES NOT ACCURATELY DESCRIBE THE EMOTIONS CURRENTLY HAPPENING RIGHT NOW.

I don't usually get riled up in LJ Communities, but this person needs to be smacked.
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http://equestriamlp.livejournal.com/477499.html

She's a hateful cunt and needs to be given a fucking reminder of what the show she loves so much is all about.

You know you've got a loving boyfriend...
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when he offers to go to Wawa to buy you chocolate when he knows you're PMSing. Best boyfriend? Best boyfriend.
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Bed bugs
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Oh my god. My house has bed bugs. I am an itchy mess and its just getting worse. Hoping the exterminator can do something about it when he comes out today. Aaaaaaugh!!!!!

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Salem has kidney failure.

I feel like I got hit by a bus. 
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HOLY CRAP
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I'm 25. I am twenty-five years old. HOLY FUCK..

Proceed to freak out.

So, Hurricane Sandy
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I'm right in the direct path of Hurricane Sandy. The latest maps show the eye of the storm passing directly over my house, pretty much, so, that's cool, I guess. 

I've got my freezer packed to the gills with containers of water/ice to keep my frozen food frozen for as long as possible. I've got gallons upon gallons of drinking water. I've got two 30 gallon tubs filled with water in my bathroom in case the water pump stops working. I'm prepared. 

Come at me, Sandy. 

"Goodnight princess"
Amanda Palmer
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Dan: Goodnight princess
Me: Look at my face. Look at this smile. Because you called me 'princess'
Dan: Well you are my princess... and I just can't wait to see your smile when someday you're a queen

Guhhhhhhhhhhhh *floating on cloud 9*

Also, he bought us tickets to see Amanda Palmer in 8 days. Also I found an American Curl kitten at my friend's house tonight just after seeing my first ever moon dog. Tonight was goddamn amazing.

Just a little rant - Public post
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You know what upsets me? The fact that some people think that there is no way I can be an atheist and a good person. Allow me to paraphrase a little here... "How can you have morals if you didn't get them from somewhere? You have to believe in God to have morals." First of all, when I was growing up, I was taught by my parents what the difference between right and wrong was. I was also taught by the teachers in my school the same difference. Also, I'm pretty sure Disney had a lot to do with it, as well. I do not do right from fear of being damned to hell because of some guy in the sky watching every little thing I do. I do right because it is common sense and because it makes me feel good.

I was asked if I would ever change my mind and ever believe in God again (though I'm not sure if I ever fully believed to begin with), I simply said that if ever a time came where someone could hand me concrete evidence proving the existence of God, not some words written in a leather bound book, I would consider believing.

Don't even get me started on the fact that gay and bisexual people do not have the right to marry someone of their own sex just because some bible thumping bigots think that its wrong. I think that its wrong that we are seriously considering electing a man who wants to hide just about every part of his life from the public eye, a man who wants to increase the amount of taxes I pay just so the rich can line their pockets a little more. No they are not going to cut taxes for the rich to create jobs, if the rich are so rich, they could create the jobs anyway. Don't take more money from people like me who already struggle on a daily basis to make ends meet. I think if the nation would just elect an atheist president, one who does live his life for "God" and is more focused on helping everyone, we'd be in a much nicer place. I think I nailed it back in 2004 when I made the shirt that said "Just Stop Voting, Maybe They'll Go Away". Mitt Romney and his pesky running mate will only make our lives worse, anyone who blindly votes for them just because they jumped on the "Nobama" bandwagon is just as stupid as the men they're voting for.

When I get married, I am going to find an atheist to perform the ceremony. There will be no mention of God, nor will anyone say that it is a "Blessed" union. We're just two people who want to devote our lives to each other and make it legal. Whether I marry a man or a woman, I would only hope that it is my choice to make and not the choice of the US government.

TL;DR - Our country is fucked, people spew hate louder than they spew love, and no, I don't believe in God.

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